Life really is an emotional roller coaster. You have your ups and then you have your downs. You fall, and you get back up. I have learned that there are things and times that I can't control. I'm also learning how to deal with it. Unless you've been through this you don't understand how big of a step that is.
I lost my husband. I lost half of my life. Half. Not all. I have the ability to pick back up and keep going. While it is not easy, and at time I don't want to do it at all, I know I have to. It's hard. So hard, to pick up by yourself and keep going. An older couple came into an ice cream shop I was at and instantly I hated them. I hated what they had, and what was taken from me. Sure, someday, I may get to be that little old couple, but not with the person I originally started out with. Looking at other happy people only makes you want what you had that much more. There's a ray of sunshine somewhere in the future. I know it's there. It's just being patient enough to wait for it to break over the horizon. It's always darkest before the dawn, right?
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